You still cross mind like a thousand times a day

I thought by now I’d be over us but it just ain’t that

And just because I don’t call you up anymore doesn’t mean that my feelings have changed

Everyday without you is war between my emotions and my brain

If by chance our paths cross like they have of late

And you a smile painted on my face

Know it’s just a show, I don’t feel happy in any kind of way Whenever I see your hand in with him, my heart falls into pieces and breaks all over again.

I tried to get you out of my heart but I’ve only managed to get you off this lonely mind of mine

I never had a plan B, I never planned for a day of what if she wants to leave, I never imagined that there would be a goodbye

I always thought you’d be here, my lover, my first wife, the mother of my firstborn child

I didn’t realise how much I loved you until you decided to leave

Now that you’re gone, the eyes of my heart can clearly see

The love I have for you runs to the bone, it runs twice as deep We went to hell and back for this love, it ain’t fair that we did all the work and now your Mr new reaps the benefits of the time we put in

It hurts to know that these words lost in rhyme, you’ll never read

But who do I tell about how much I miss our used to be’s Nobody cares, most would just think “really dude” while cutting their eyes at me

This blank page never judges, it always listens, it allows my heart to breathe, I can tell it anything

Heaven only knows how I wish you knew how I still feel deep within

I see traces of you in everything, I wonder if you ever miss me to

Do we also meet in your dreams at night, like we do in mine? do wake up reaching out for me like I do for you?

Is he the new reason for the smile on your pretty face, or does that honour still belong to me alone?

Without you here, I’ve lost all inspiration, this house without you is not a home.

Everytime my phone rings I pray to God that this time it’s you

It never is, God knows that there’s nothing that I won’t do To go back in time and erase the mistakes I made along the way, 1 1 m sorry for the pain I put you through

I was blind, I just couldn’t see your worth while you were mine, I swear, it’s not some cop-out or another random excuse.

I miss you, I need you, without 1 1 m stranded, I love you still, I wish my heart you somehow read

1 1 m not the man I was, losing you, forever left me changed, I became the man you always wanted but never got the

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I pray to God asking for some kind of grace and mercy, for

Him to soften your heart and to send you back to me

He remains silent, with a loving smile on His face as if what happened was meant to be

Even if it was scripted in my life, I want you to be a part of my story.

People ask me who is the girl that I write about in my poetry They say I should send them your way, that it might change your mind if only these words your eyes could see

I just look at them and smile, knowing that there’s nothing that I haven’t tried to bring you back to me

Or that our last conversation ended in a fight, it’s been a year since and I just haven’t had the courage to call, I didn’t want to hear you tell me again “That’s why I couldn’t wait to leave”

I know you no longer care like you once did, he has taken my place

I know that 1 1 m no longer the reason for the smile on your face that won’t go away

But I still love you, my feelings haven’t faded over time, I still love you and miss you each day

1 1 m sorry for everything, If I had the power God knows how I would manipulate time and push reset just to get one more chance to love you from day 1 again