Waking up and thinking about past occurrences

Waking up and seeing everything reappearing vividly and also trying to forget makes things worse than worse. I wouldn’t normally blame anyone for bad things unfolding in my life but I’m sure this was you, you know I remember the first day we had our first conversation I was annoyed, scared, and just suprised that bad boys like you could talk to girls like me, you stated your story (well I choose to say its a story)

And after you spoke, I ran away because it was just too much.

Today every single decision I take always strings me towards you because I entirely dedicated my life to you and to you it was like usual.

But I’m grateful for having to meet you because you have taught me life at a very early stage of life and now I know that some paths aren’t supposed to be taken. The impact you had on me cannot be removed or erased forever.