I always feel a mix of emotions, my emotions are like a rollercoaster, they have their ups and downs but I don’t let my feelings get the best of me, most of the time I feel pressured and hopeless, I usually feel like giving up when ever I wanna do something, there’s always those voices in my head telling me I will not make it.
I used to be a very happy person but life did something to me that I’ll never forget, I just feel like there is no purpose to life anymore but I won’t let my thoughts hold me back, I’m trying to forget everything that happened in the past and focus on the future, but I can’t forget it’s not that easy, I always mask my sadness with a big smile, people always think that I’m happy, but deep down im always fighting to not break down in front of them.
I wanna speak to someone, but I stopped trusting people ages ago because of how badly I got betrayed by the person I trusted the most, it still hurts I might act like the betrayal didn’t effect but it did affect me big time, I’m not depressed or anything I’m just a person who has a heavy heart and I’m trying to get things of my chest, so writing is my best therapy it helps me talk about how I always feel.
Well I am mentally, physically and emotionally tired, but I’m not gonna give up on life my momma taught me to never give up on life and always fight, so if I have to fight to pull through than I’ll fight.