Dream me good…

How about we backup a little, said the voice which keeps haunting me for what reason I will never know. Then suddenly teenage life hit me up with a sense of reality to who I was, who I am and what I am becoming? I feel fear inside because I am in love. Something that is forbidden in my family. Whenever I am with him all reality closes off and I am in this dome of fairytale which shuts out the hurt of reality but I love him so I kept to myself.

NIGHTMARES BEGIN…

Then suddenly I Decided to step out of what I thought was a curse of my family to not love, my biggest mistake was telling him I loved him, cause to him “the shy girl was crazy.” then I started to reject the feeling inside, he changed and became a nightmare other than my prince in shining. What the hell went wrong? That’s a question I’ll never receive the answer to…

Regrets…

Now the biggest thing I regret is to love an ungrateful son of a…….. I hope something will click in his mind because he lost a very possible friendship if not ” RELATIONSHIP”.. But I realize now that being mad is petty of me because it is not his fault that he just went silent and dumbfound by the words which I said those three words. Which are I LOVE YOU, turns out that he was just surprised because he felt that too, but was too astonished to act at that time. The next day he said the five words I’ve been earning to hear from him for the first time…

Happy me happy love

At first it was awkward to vibe with him, then we ended it because it was too complicated and now our status is friends all the way. I love him but not as much as before so I guess the reason I don’t want to love is because I’m afraid of the complications of love and losing them. It is now hard for me to attach myself to anyone because of this…

Love is a powerful force which can heal and hurt, which can also be fragile but strong 👑🕶️👑💞💖