Everything looks really promising right now. Hi, my friend! People think I’m crazy for confiding in you- a book, but they don’t know you’re not just a book. You keep our secrets, I can be transparent about everything with you and you never respond ( sometimes I wish you could, but still I’d freak out because books aren’t meant to talk). I love our relationship and I couldn’t ask for a better friend.
Today is the 4th of June and I started a new job about 2 weeks ago. Hooray! I can’t contain my happiness, mostly because I love my job and the people here are simply amazing. I’m doing what I love so I don’t see myself ever waking up in the morning and feeling like not going to work. Everything about this job is just the best, from the hours, to the lunch they offer, to the mini braais every Friday and most importantly the salary I’ll be getting.
My mental health is quite stable, probably because I’m mobile, I socialize, I’m eating properly, I’m staying away from the people and activities that trigger me and I’m just being a good person to myself. I am not journaling as much because of the busy schedule but I’m coping well.
My relationship with my boyfriend is really good, although we’re both busy now – we still make time for each other and we seem to be making it work just fine. He’s super supportive ( he even gave me a month’s taxi fare since it’s my first month and I was really broke when I got the call, such a sweetie, right?)
I’m slowly building friendships at work, but that doesn’t mean I’m now neglecting my friend from the neighborhood. I would never do that, she’s just so considerate and understanding and loving, we’ll always be friends ecause she gets me.
I will now be able to take care of my mom’s medical bills and just make sure she’s well fed and taken care of. My babies will not lack anything. Talking of them, we have made timetables to fit in homework, play time, movie nights and honesty time. So we have a day, usually Sundays, to reflect on the week ;how we felt; what we liked about it ; what we learned and so on, we call it Honesty Time.
Some people question my way of parenting and honestly I’m doing what works for me and the little ones and that’s all that matters to me. As long as we’re happy, then I don’t have to explain anything to anyone. My kids are literally the reason I’m breathing today.
I am happy, overjoyed, content and I feel like I’m moving in the right direction and things are finally coming together.
I have a lot planned and I will put everything into action and every doubt I’ve ever had about me making it big, is slowly fading away.