” Look my love, I want us to date then we see what happens but I really love you. We have to grow from seedling ,now we are just on branch level,” he said calmly with our hands entwined together.

I squirmed with joy and threw myself on him. All I wanted was to feel his warmth and love but he quickly pushed me aside. Maybe I hurt him ,I didn’t know. I sat beside him with a feeling to scream. His muscular torso revealed by filled whit vest,I saw he had a well built body even though he was short. By looking at him I spread my hands on his chest and giggled. It send chills to my spine. 

” Sorry,let’s just not rush,” he wipe his trousers with his hands shyly and his eyes on the ground. 

” Its okay,” I replied gently.

Something was wrong,why doesn’t he want us to be intimate? Maybe he doesn’t want me to feel used. I was on a rock with thoughts I could answer . I couldn’t ask his feelings. Las was reserved and he rather keep quiet. I saw that something was weighing on his shoulder and I didn’t want to add more especially to his man hood. Maybe he is embrassed with the size of his organ. 

I never told you ,Las was short ,his hands were short like a child’s. I don’t tease him but maybe you will understand why I thought he was ashamed of his body. Everything was small on his body but he was older than me. I can actually say he was a dwarf. Please don’t laugh,let’s get back to the story.

” Sex is sacred . The best moment will come,” he kissed my cheek.

I just didn’t understand how we would cuddle and kiss without intentions of sleeping with other. Kissing and cuddling will lead us but I had to respect him. Other part of my mind says maybe I wasn’t the woman he wanted . But no man ever refusednto sleep with a woman these days . I had my head buzzing ,I was actually having a headache too.

Inspite of what Laz made me feel,I still stayed in the relationship. If I truly loved him,I had to repair the broken pieces. But his quiet mood made me felt unimportant. It made me lose a bit of my self esteem. I was staring at his picture.

” Fi,what wrong?” a voice spoke to me but I was thinking of my relationship . Stress was just settling in my body.

I turned back and notice Thelma behind me.  I smiled and fidgeted ,helping myself to be comfortable.

” It’s nothing,” I replied while clearing my throat. She looked at me steady and sighed. Her head shook on sympathy.

” Its him,right? ” her eyebrow rose motioning my phone and I quickly put my phone von home screen.

” No,why do you say that?”I pretended .

” Be honest! Tell me what did he do? ……. Fiona……. Talk please!” she pleaded calmly . I saw care in her eyes and I told her every bit of every detail between me and Las.

” Dump him! He doesn’t love you,” that was the first sentence she said after listening to my sorrows.

I suddenly felt edgy and something in my head. My conscience was troubled,I felt guilty because I told her about me. I didn’t feel safe.