Hello

A unknown number sent a message making me panicky. I don’t even know it then I saw the profile pic ,it was a lion sitting on a branch a tree. One thing came in my mind was that I knew whose number it was. I didn’t know whether to reply or ignore. My mind was rejoicing and my heart was aching for more love from him. My head told me to ignore. My heart kept lingering that I had missed him ,I finally found myself replying.

Hie! I missed you

Before I pressed the send button,my head was ringing in my head warning me I will get hurt again . I quickly erased the message. My head told me to just pretend like I don’t know who it was. The heart wins ,it always get what it wants after all.

Hello! Who is this?

He replied so quickly, he wasn’t online. Or maybe he was waiting for my message.

Hey,long time . I miss you!

As I light my screen ,I was happy inside while angry on the other side. Why doesn’t he apologize for being so ignorant in our relationship, But my heart was leaping for joy. He was back!

Its me ,your boy!

I kept looking at the screen hoping for a apology then I try to calm down.

I thought you didn’t want me

Why was I even typing this ? He made me feel unwanted and unimportant. Our relationship in a day was suppose to be flourishing but he acted like he was fade up of me,I became a bug to him. My mind was working overtime,I took longer to check the phone for his message.

You know I was happy with you. I want you!

But things didn’t work out 

Let’s try again! I love you! You are the only thing I want!

I finally gave in ,within a short space of time. He treated me as his woman but he didn’t apologize. Because I still loved him ,I took him back hoping we were never going to be on the same path again.

Each and every day I wanted to tell him that I loved him. Every night I would imagine him and me ,he was all I thought. My feelings were to burst,all I wanted was him. I would write poems of how I feel ,some I send to him but he never appreciated. I just knew he was busy.

How was my poem?

Later ! I haven’t read.

I respected he had to work , I didn’t want to disrupt my relationship with the man I loved . A few months passed ,my mind was in love and my heart flowed in bed of roses, I ignored my heart because I thought now it was never going to end.

I wanna visit you

Srs? You will be with me?

Yes,I will

Next week it my birthday. I was so excited ,he would visit . Maybe he would surprise me. I imagine him buying me a cake with candles and surprise me. I also imagine he buy me a latest phone but I knew I shouldn’t except a lot. A cake would do, I pictured myself with him on a picnic holding hands like two loving birds. He fed me small pieces of cake and we kissed. It was a scene I never wanted to come to the real world .

“Fiona,you cell ringing,” I heard this voice in a masculine tone but when I turned it was my sister . I can’t even focus on work,all I think is him. Maybe he gave me a love portion. I know I have a problem of loving someone , I love deeper than the roots. It will be difficult to unroot because some roots are left in the soil and grow again. I was describing my love for Laz. Don’t laugh at me!

” Damn it! It was Priv trying to check on the order,” I quickly darted to check if the order was ready.