Time,

What a painful reminder, you are!

In a matter of seconds,

Here today, gone tomorrow.

In a few minutes,

You took your first and last breath.

Abruptly, you left and filled my soul with tremendous sorrow.

Your little body I carried within my homey womb, in a matter of seconds that womb became your very tomb.

With every passing day, I assume I feel a little okay

Your little footprints haunt my memory, and slaps me back into my daunting and lonely reality.

I wish you were here still within me but I’m grown enough to know that wishes don’t come true.

I so desperately desire to spend another day with you,

Like clockwork, you moved in my belly.

Your little movements I miss.

This once living womb remains barren and lifeless,

like a deserted home with no occupant.

I count the minutes on the ticking clock but your loss has left a hole in my heart, a chokehold on my throat, and a pain in my chest.

With a pain so immense in this lifetime, My torn soul finds it hard to rest.

You are the love I never got to truly experience, but rest assured you are the dream I dream of every night.

A pleasant dream, where we are reunited in a lush green garden filled with many colourful flowers.

A dream where I lovingly embrace you in these motherly, eager arms, where you you are destined to belong, a dream that is a reality and will never end.

but when I am awake in the land of the living,

I look at the time, and it tells me ,”NO”.

I search for you between the seconds of every hour and everyday, but deep down sadly I know, I know…

I won’t get my way…

Time heals all wounds, and so they say,

but I think all wounds heal within a lifetime, and never a day.

So, that makes me feel a little okay, but for now,

Time,

with your box of painful memories you,

what a cold and painful reminder you are!