She left before I could tell her how I felt.

I thought I had enough time but

I guess I was wrong.

It had been a while since she left the

Relationship.

Emotionally, I had failed to realize I no longer occupied her heart.

She chose to stay with me even when

I chose myself.

Why didn’t I choose Her?!

She submitted her whole self

To me,

But I Chose to overlook her Worth.

She left before I could tell her how

I felt.

She saw a future with me, I wanted her

Around,

The problem is I struggled with expressing

my feelings.

She wanted to shower me with love,

But couldn’t show up.

I remember her asking me to make time for her.

And I ran away, not seeing I was

Running out of time with her.

And slowly, she kicked me out of her heart.

Now I’m stuck thinking about what I missed out

On.

I didn’t trust I could love, or worth to be loved,

But in her eyes I was enough.

Will I ever truly allow myself to experience love?

How long will I keep running away from

my emotions?

What if my heart is just defective.

And I just love making up excuses for my

Bad behavior.

Too afraid to ever be vulnerable.

I feel ashamed thinking of how badly I treated

My previous lovers.

How I robbed them of my affection,

How I never seemed to have time.

Iwas there but never close enough,

Avoided any form of intimacy,

A love drought they felt in my world.

Emotionally, I was still immature.

Communication was one of my weakest

points,

She left because I couldn’t fight for us,

I couldn’t fight my insecurities for her.

You took a piece of me I wish I had

never let go of.

When you left I didn’t understand why,

Why couldn’t you stay a bit longer?!

I’m sorry I never showed my love.

I’m sorry I never allowed you in.

I can’t stop thinking about you,

You’re not in my life anymore.

Okay, I’ll admit it – you’re everything I think about.

You’re the person I dream about.

You’re the one that got away.

Asking myself why let you go?!

You were the sunshine I didn’t see

I needed the most.

It is only now that I realize that Iam the

one you only had eyes for.

Iwas such a fool to let you go.

I still can’t move on, you’re like a drug.

I’m hooked on you!