She left before I could tell her how I felt.
I thought I had enough time but
I guess I was wrong.
It had been a while since she left the
Relationship.
Emotionally, I had failed to realize I no longer occupied her heart.
She chose to stay with me even when
I chose myself.
Why didn’t I choose Her?!
She submitted her whole self
To me,
But I Chose to overlook her Worth.
She left before I could tell her how
I felt.
She saw a future with me, I wanted her
Around,
The problem is I struggled with expressing
my feelings.
She wanted to shower me with love,
But couldn’t show up.
I remember her asking me to make time for her.
And I ran away, not seeing I was
Running out of time with her.
And slowly, she kicked me out of her heart.
Now I’m stuck thinking about what I missed out
On.
I didn’t trust I could love, or worth to be loved,
But in her eyes I was enough.
Will I ever truly allow myself to experience love?
How long will I keep running away from
my emotions?
What if my heart is just defective.
And I just love making up excuses for my
Bad behavior.
Too afraid to ever be vulnerable.
I feel ashamed thinking of how badly I treated
My previous lovers.
How I robbed them of my affection,
How I never seemed to have time.
Iwas there but never close enough,
Avoided any form of intimacy,
A love drought they felt in my world.
Emotionally, I was still immature.
Communication was one of my weakest
points,
She left because I couldn’t fight for us,
I couldn’t fight my insecurities for her.
You took a piece of me I wish I had
never let go of.
When you left I didn’t understand why,
Why couldn’t you stay a bit longer?!
I’m sorry I never showed my love.
I’m sorry I never allowed you in.
I can’t stop thinking about you,
You’re not in my life anymore.
Okay, I’ll admit it – you’re everything I think about.
You’re the person I dream about.
You’re the one that got away.
Asking myself why let you go?!
You were the sunshine I didn’t see
I needed the most.
It is only now that I realize that Iam the
one you only had eyes for.
Iwas such a fool to let you go.
I still can’t move on, you’re like a drug.
I’m hooked on you!