I know you think I’m useless
You lie when you say I brought light into your life
I’m nothing but a burden to you
All I’ve brought along with me is pain and anger
disapointment and hatred.
You don’t love me anymore
You loved the younger version of me
The innocent and sweet version of me
No one will ever truly love me, all of me
Y’all try to pick bits and pieces of me but you can’t accept the whole package
All of y’all just tolerate me because you have to
I notice everything.
My heart can’t take it anymore
My tears are drying up
I don’t love me anymore, I honestly don’t.
Nothing that I ever do is right
I can never satisfy or make a person happy
I can’t count the number of times I’ve put that razor against my skin and felt myself go numb
But just like everyone else you don’t notice my scars
You don’t notice me
While other people were praying for a longer and happier life, I prayed for an early death.
So far God hasn’t listened.
So maybe I’ll bjust have to do it by myself
Maybe then you’ll care
Maybe then you’ll notice me
Maybe then you’ll love
When I’m gone. Forever.
They say that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary situation, but they don’t know anything.
They don’t know half the things I went through
These scars will never heal