Years which started with joy

And happiness ended up being

Years of misery because of

The decisions I took.

Decisions which made me 

Lose friends, family members,

a baby and I also lost myself in the process. 
I ended up being lost in the

journey which was supposed to be a joy ride, 
a journey which was meant

for me to find myself, but I lost the real me.

My teen years,

Years which led me to attempt suicide,

Years which left me in tears

And loneliness.

Years which I wish I hadn’t made

Hasty decisions or rushing into

Things like life were coming to an end.
I ended up drinking down my

sorrows which led me to be an alcoholic.

I then smoked down my pain

Which didn’t help much but left

Me with a weed addiction.

My teen years,

I ended up being a mother,

Unprepared but I don’t regret

Having such a blessing from God,

But that was a rushed and a hasty

Decision that I took in the spur of the moment because of “LOVE”.

I turned myself into someone

I’m not because I wanted to

Please the next person all in

The name of “HAPPILY EVER AFTER”.

I nearly drove myself into an early

Grave because I was crazily in “LOVE”.

My teen years,

The decisions I took nearly

Cost me my own life.