Sometimes I am over the moon

At times I feel so empty

And most of the time I’m lonely

Please, I do not need your sorry

I do not want your sympathy

I want you to understand me

I want you to understand my state of mind

I never enjoyed anybody’s company

I love being lonely

And I do not feel less

Do not feel bad to leave me

Because I never considered you being around me

I never decided to feel this way

Because I am also confused

I cannot explain myself

Why these mysterious things?

Why me? Out of all?

It feels like I’m in the dark

Waiting for light!

My question is, is there a daylight?

Am I being programmed?

Or is it a progress?

Am I in a mission?

Waiting for my vision?

Why am I in this state ?

My mind is confused

At times I’m happy

After a second I’m sad

I have a scar in my heart

But I cannot find healing

I cannot find a way back to myself

Let me sit down

And try to figure out

What is triggering me

How did I end up here?

It is sad how I got myself in this state

Am I taking myself for granted?

What kind of a situation is this?