Look at what this life taught me

Not everything is sweet and toffy

Not even my double Expresso coffee

I’m coughing, trying to remove this cloud of judgements 

It’s cocky

Mock me, call me names 

Put me on the spotlight with flames

While I still think our union is amaze

Grind with negativity I’m your maize

There’s no shame 

That all those who are known as friends 

Are a budge of frames

Like those dolls we call besties when

We are out with no fame or called lame

Not on our faces , behind those curtain laces

By the same people who show use grace

With big smiles with braces

I still repeat…shame

Well to me thinking that I can be that sane 

And actually choose a real friend without going insane

All those days I was in pain 

They where celebrating my down fall with cheap champagne

But hey drink maybe you’ll get drunk and trigger your inner pace and tell it that I’m not here to be you or run your race

If I was you then you’d 

Never hear these words from anyone again

So trust you me , people like me, unique, you need

Maybe in your case some sense of belonging

I see y’all longing to see this ship sinking but it’s sailing

Failing, yes but waiting of course 

For the day you swallow not just slimey substances but your words when I conquer different problems and circumstances

Yeah my words

Tell me you never saw me there

When I’m glowing standing right here

But yeah, it’s all those who try to dim my light 

That thinks they actually did 

But no it’s still bright because of God’s good deeds

Diss,no it’s me tripping and falling for your lies and 

Evil deeds,

Friendship it’s that story of a wolf in a sheep skin

Calling you skeem but jumping,skipping to land to their 

Next skeem to see you scream 

Shouting calling my self a useless dream

Just because I am not what they are looking for 

Or maybe I’m what they are looking for just not me 

But all those sitting in the forefront tryingto make sense of the last verse because I mean if I’m not me then what else will make sense. 

Yeah maybe to hell with my two cents 

But in hell you’ll be walking with two steps if you

Don’t watch your step,when you introduce yourself as real friends

As everything else except mess

Because mess you’ll are

It’s best we close this crap and move on 

With our life’s without living in lies

Wise right

Linda