Letter to my father

I am speechless

I’m unable to express my feelings

I feel like I am lost

How could you?

How could you abandon me like that?

What were you thinking again?

I thought you were my pillar of strength

Every day when days pass by

I thought you would come around and show how remorseful you are

But nothing, nothing is digging your heart

You have caused me pain

You even have the guts to tell me how useless I am to you

What kind of a father are you to me?

Or should I ask what kind of a father are you to your kids

I pray to God almost every day

To change your life and to be a better person

To change your life and fix all your countless mistakes

I wish I could forgive you and forget

But I have to admit that it is not easy

As days pass by

I have become stronger than yesterday

I am sorry to tell you that

You are cursing your beloved kids with your dirty ways

I am sorry.

I am unable to forgive you.