Did I lose my feelings, or did I lose my sense of emotions?
I am still searching deep inside my heart
but my mind brings me back to a logical conclusion.
How I long for the feeling of shedding tears.
But my mind won’t let me.
The deep thoughts I seek to trigger my emotions.
All seem to be locked deep in my brain.
All doors shut off.
I guess the knocking manner won’t make no difference.
I guess I am the definition of a heartless human being.
Am I even a human?
All day contemplating and arguing with my thoughts.
What I seek is hard for me to hold onto and yet people around me reach it with no struggle.
Am I that different that I cannot even feel for them…
I also want to feel that moment where we share tears
Where we laugh with our hearts.
I want to feel too
Feel pain, guilt and those negative emotions one have.
I want to sense that insecurities one have even for minute.
I guess I just lost the feeling of emotions.