I wasn’t lying when I said I loved him
I wasn’t joking when I explained this to him
I wasn’t sure if he felt the same
I wasn’t lying because I never lied to him
I wasn’t lying about the dreams I had of him
I wasn’t lying about the scenes I play in my mind
I wasn’t lying when I told him he’s the only thing that matters
I wasn’t lying about anything
I wasn’t lying when I told his parents I loved him
I wasn’t lying when I told them I’d get him
I wasn’t lying when I promised them that he’d be mine, forever
I wasn’t lying about giving him a life he never had
I wasn’t lying.
Believe me.
Believe me that if I can’t have him, no one else can
Believe me that all of this I did for him
Believe me that I wanted him closer
I wasn’t lying about my love for him
I wasn’t lying that I live for him
I wasn’t lying that I’ll do everything for him
I wasn’t lying at all
I wasn’t lying that you’ll eventually end up with me
I wasn’t lying, till death do us apart, which brought us together
I’m sorry that it had to happen like this
All of this I did for you, for us
I wasn’t lying that you will eventually end up with me
A gun to my head and a bullet to your heart was the only solution
We are together now.
Love,
I wasn’t lying when I said you’re mine; rest in peace, love.