I wasn’t lying when I said I loved him

I wasn’t joking when I explained this to him

I wasn’t sure if he felt the same

I wasn’t lying because I never lied to him

I wasn’t lying about the dreams I had of him

I wasn’t lying about the scenes I play in my mind

I wasn’t lying when I told him he’s the only thing that matters

I wasn’t lying about anything

I wasn’t lying when I told his parents I loved him

I wasn’t lying when I told them I’d get him

I wasn’t lying when I promised them that he’d be mine, forever

I wasn’t lying about giving him a life he never had

I wasn’t lying.

Believe me.

Believe me that if I can’t have him, no one else can

Believe me that all of this I did for him

Believe me that I wanted him closer

I wasn’t lying about my love for him

I wasn’t lying that I live for him

I wasn’t lying that I’ll do everything for him

I wasn’t lying at all

I wasn’t lying that you’ll eventually end up with me

I wasn’t lying, till death do us apart, which brought us together

I’m sorry that it had to happen like this

All of this I did for you, for us

I wasn’t lying that you will eventually end up with me

A gun to my head and a bullet to your heart was the only solution

We are together now.

Love,

I wasn’t lying when I said you’re mine; rest in peace, love.