What does she have that I don’t have?

Why do you prefer to only talk to her?

I wish that you could also speak to me

Sometimes I do get jealous

When I hear that you have been speaking to her.

I also just wanna spend a few minutes talking to you.

But maybe this is just how it should be.

Maybe she’s a year or two younger than me

Maybe she is prettier than me

Maybe she is just way cooler than me

She is a slay queen afterall.

Unlike her I never had any hidden agendas.

I was just looking for your friendship.

But maybe it’s time to face the reality

And accept that we’ll never be friends.

Your friendship with her is causing me unnecessary heartaches

Why I don’t know.

I can’t force you to talk to me.

I definitely can’t force you to choose me.

I also can’t force you to be my friend.

But how can I lose something I never had?

And be jealous of something that was never mine?

Why am I so jealous of your friendship with her?

Why does it affect me so much?

Why is it hurting and upsetting me so much?

Why do I care so much about who you are talking to?

I wish I knew maybe than I would’ve understood.