I still find it hard to believe that we are no more.
I still can’t digest our break up.
I cry myself to sleep every single night.
I Sleep with my phone on my chest hoping that you’ll text me,
Saying that you’re sorry, and you want me back.
But unfortunately that’s nothing but a fantasy.
I really loved you… I still love you.
I just dont know what to do anymore.
I act all though, acting as if I’m cool.
But deep down that sh**t hurts.
I think about you every single day
I hate myself for loving you.
I hate myself for pushing you away.
I can’t stop imagining the way he touches you and
what he says to you. It haunts me,
what about the promises you made
What about the future we dreamt of
Or was I the only one who saw a future with you?
I just can’t let go of you it’s hard
But I obviously have no choice but to try
I sometimes whish our breakup is just a dream…
I wish someone can pinch me and tell me to wake up
I wish I could rewind time
Maybe then could’ve prevented this
Because I constently keep on blaming myself now.
But I pray I find inner peace and
get the courage to move on and forget about you.
Yeah I get it I’m not perfect nd nobody is
But I tried the best i could…
So i guess it wasn’t enough.
Funny now I have take some drugs to keep me numb
That’s the only thing that helps…
I don’t completely forget you when I’m high
But at least I get to smile a little bit.
Yet what I know is that my intentions have been pure from the start
I’ve been giving you my all since the very beginning
I just hope your new nigga’s keeping it real too
And he won’t change on you…
Like you did on me

Yours truly
Lee-ndor