They said , ” love bears worry and creates fear in a human’s heart so by leaving the love ; you will have neither worry nor fear “. Yet i asked ” if you have love in your heart ; why should you be afraid of worry and fear ?”

I also loved , yes i also loved ! It’s just that my love was too humble that I always worried about losing you ; I wished but I couldn’t make it . One day it cooled down leaving hatred and jealousy in my heart when you left

My heart has distorted so much that even I loathed myself ; in my lifetime I could never escape my destiny of being despised . Looking back what leaves behind is a big mess , that’s enough and I’m tired .

If this is love ocean where i gotta go deep down, fight for survival in the deepest water ; then let me sink , lemme go down, if that will bring you back .

” Would I be able to clean the mess i didn’t make ?” ; ” Would my love for him be more than enough ? ” ; ” Would i survive trying to mould someone back into the right mentality ?” ; ” How do I fix a broken glass without cutting myself in the process ?”

the voice in my head wonders , as i stare at your photo giving up .