How do you express your feelings in writing? I’ve asked myself this several times without finding an answer.

I wish I could learn to express myself throughout writing. Many people says it helps ease your mind ,but I bring myself to do it .How do I learn to let go of my feelings? How do I open up about how I feel and let my heart heal?

I always think of things to say ,but when the time comes it’s like my mind goes blank. I want to be loved and understood just the way I am, But who would love someone who is not strong enough so speak and stand up for themselves. I feel like I’ve done bad deeds in past live that cause my misfortunes in this life, Is this a curse?

I wish to understand this, Do my feelings and emotions becomes less valid because I can’t explain the feeling that triggers them? I wish someday I could come out of this shell so I can be heard and understood.