“So since you are not planning to pull that trigger anytime soon, can you get me more of these?” I held up the empty pudding cup. “What the hell, why the I think you are in the wrong kind of hospital, seriously”, then he put down the gun, chucking while walking to the window pulling his hair as if he was trying to stop a pounding headache. “Well I did fall in love, the brakes of my car were cut and I ended up in a ghetto hospital and how the charming bastard, I still would gladly give up an organ for has a gun pointed to my head, do you REALLY blame me?” He kept staring outside the window.
He banged his head against it three times then abruptly kicked a box on the floor making me jump startled, “FUCK!!, What the fuck” He screamed. “He pointed the gun again at me, “Why can’t I just, why, shit!” He cocked the gun with wobbly hands. “Do you remember when you asked what my favourite movie was?” I asked him looking down at my entwined hands. I felt his intense gaze on me, his eyes lingered before he relaxed his arms and chuckled lowly, ” Of course, you answered that it’s one you star in”, “You never know what to expect, sure it’s painfully long but the plot makes it worth it, Do you get it now?”
He averted his eyes. “You don’t understand, if I don’t do this he’s going to ruin my life and besides this is my job” I had too much heartache to process all this, “Yes but I thought you said you love me!”, “I do baby, I really do but-“, “How do you know he won’t ruin it after you kill me? Isn’t a ruined life better than having no life at all ?” He stood quiet, “okay, okay, kill me then but before please-” I stuck out my hand, he came over immediately, took it in his and messaged it. “Spend at least the last ten minutes of my life with me, my family will never accept us anyways”. He kissed my hand and laid down with me, I put my head on his chest and Drew imaginary circles on his chest.
After a while, I noticed he was asleep so I slowly slipped out trying not to make a sound, opened the last drawer and took out the painkillers I stashed days ago. After gulping down the water I crept back in.
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I woke up slowly but immediately squinted my eyes from the bright light. “Looks like all is in order, I’ll leave her to rest,” said the doctor fixing my water drip thingy. “Should I let her family in?”, Then I heard his voice, “no-no please, I think she needs to rest, she mentioned she was tired”, ” Certainly,” she said heading for the door, “oh and another, maybe not tell them, I’m here?”, “Ohh-kay sure” she smiled, leaving the room.
“Ez-” I said weakly noticing my throat had dried up, “Ez- ezra” he ran to my side, “Babe what’s wrong, you feeling okay?” I shed a tear, “You couldn’t do it, you never would’ve so I did it for you” I smiled, finding it harder to speak, “What are you talking about Allie?”, “I overdosed” I choked out, feeling funky and dizzy, he chuckled humorously, “You messing with me, no, you wouldn’t, baby look I’m sorry for earlier but I promise once you get outta here, skip the country, we’ll start a new life, I promise to protect you with my all” Tears rushed harder like floodgates escaping in a dam, I touched my throat, “the pi-the pills contained potassium permanganate, I’m allergic but baby listen to me okay, Ezra look, take whatever money he gives you, build your dream gym, find another girl, love her marry her and please don’t forget me but do move on”
He shed tears of his own now, hearing the machines beep louder and faster, “I’m sorry it was your dad, sorry I failed you” My dad? All my life he never wanted me but now he’s ordering hits on me? I coughed up blood and saw the panic flash through his eyes. “Ezra run before it’s too late, goo” everything turned blurry and vague. I heard my name and my favourite husky voice, “I love you baby I always will love you, I’m sorr…”
The End