As I grow up, I’ve seen things I wasn’t supposed to see, heard things that are currently destroying my life. I attended counciling left and right cause I’m mentally disturb. ” here is my story”

Lukho was a brilliant girl at school, teachers used to love her because she was smart and also kind too, she was people’s person. She was a happy kid at school with few friends, but her worry was going back home. Everytime when it’s ” after school”, she would just wish she had another parents, or she lived with different people, she couldn’t bare the painful life ( the abuse) she was experiencing there. The biggest problem was her own mother, that woman was heartless, she didn’t care about people’s emotions at all. ” I remember when I was about 10 yrs old, when my mother, the woman who gave birth to me, wanted to kill my own father in front of me, she carried the knife chasing my father with it😭, I couldn’t believe my eyes, I was scared, I didn’t want my father to die in front of me ” . That’s where Lukho started to be disturbed mentally, she wasn’t a normal kid anymore. She feared the moster she was living with, she was scared maybe she will be the next one day. That woman used to insult her with every insult, beat her, tell her she won’t be anything in this life. ” I still live with those words even today” .

” I remember telling her I don’t like the way she treats me in front of my little sis, ohh God, I wish I didn’t tell her. She got frustrated, you could see she hated me so much, she didn’t like it when someone tells her she’s wrong “. All Lukho was trying to do, was to protect her little sis from the abuse, not wanting her to live the life she was/is living. Unfortunately all of that, was just a waste of time, their mother become worse than before, she doesn’t listen to anyone even my father is scared of her 😔 . ” I tried to commit several suicides cause I couldn’t bare the pain anymore, I wished I could die, but I didn’t want to leave my pa and my little sis in this poverty life, I keep on praying each and every year for things to get better, but still, Ohh God what have I done to deserve this”?

With all that painful life, Lukho worked hard at school and passed her matric well, as we speak, she’s in one of the best varsity pursuing her dreams, fighting for her little sis and father’s life. As much as she hate it going back home during recess, she doesn’t have a choice cause she misses her family so much

” for those who are experiencing abuse, dears, please pray, put God in your situation 🙏 he will give you strength and don’t give up on your dreams, like I didn’t. All will be well one day, we didn’t choose this pain, but God gave it to us”

If you are feeling depressed or suicidal, please know that there is help out there and you can get better. Reach out to SADAG counselling 0800 567 567 (toll-free counselling between 8am and 8pm) or their   Suicide Crisis Line: 0800 567 567. You are not alone.