I don’t remember the last time I slept for eight hours. To think about it, the only time I sleep is when I am done turning and twirling on my bed. By that time is already six am when my alarm rings.

Too many toughts in my head keep me up all night and they’re eating me for no reason, I think about my future which makes anxious, I think about my past which makes me resent it. When I am not thinking, I am just closing my eyes hoping I’ll fall asleep, guess what it doesn’t happen.

Somedays I try reading before going to bed thinking I’ll get tired but still I can’t sleep. Okay if I get some sleep it will be for one to two hours before my alarm, making it hard for me to sleep again once I wake up. Yes sleeping tablets help me now and then to keep my insomnia at bay.

Another thing is that I can’t find a good position that’s comfortable enough for me to fall asleep, I find that strange because my bed is comfy. I try to overwork myself during the day, bathing before bed but I just can’t sleep when it’s bed time cause I think a lot about a lot things like school, my life, my health, my business, it never ends you know.

Although that’s the case, in days that I am stress free I sleep like baby. Pressure free days also help me sleep well, in other days I fall asleep without taking a pill. Yep I still have insomnia which is bad cause even if I am free of any negatives I can’t got to sleep everyday. I manage to decrease my sleeplessness by taking good care of myself, I drink enough water plus I exercise a lot, I meditate and I eat good.

Truthfuly the cause of my insomnia was compulsive thinking, which is very hard to snap out of, because it consumes ones reality into thoughts. So my advice to anyone who struggles to sleep is please be easy on yourself, what you are thinking is not what is happening right now, let go of the burdens from the past and the worries of the future everything will be alright. Learn to relax and reflect on good memories.