Did I have to lose my mother at an early age. How does one continue living without parents?

Mommy why did you bring me to this world and the leave me here all by myself? Life is not the same without you. I miss you so much mama, you don’t even visit me in my dreams. When my friends talk about their parents I keep quiet.

Life is not the same without you mama. I just hope that one day you’ll find the courage to visit me in my dreams. Ever since you left me a lot of things changed. I lost direction, families left me behind to suffer. All those who were giving me love and tender care when you were still alive turned their are backs away from me. I never knew that I would see their true colours like that. Is this the kind of life that was planned for me. Can you please come back to me, Mama. I need you.