I’m in a situation that is so complicated, I don’t know what’s going on. I’m in love with a person who never even told me that he loves me ever since we met. All he does is make me feel so comfortable, makes me feel the care, makes me fall in deep love with him, and yet he never said anything about love.

I’ve been seeing him for a long while and I still don’t know where I stand with him. He never specified if whether we are dating or not, whether we’re just sex partners or not, everything is just happening on its own and I’m afraid I might be just wasting my time with someone who’ll maybe never love me. I love him so much and it hurts really bad. Loving him hurts so bad to a point where I end up crying, just wondering what’s going on in his head. It could’ve been better if I knew where I stand, that way things could’ve been easier.

I sometimes wanna ask him if we are in a relationship or what, but I tend to pull back from my question only because I ask myself that what if I ask and ruin everything. I know that I don’t know where I stand but losing him completely would be a very big pain to my heart. And yet again I ask myself that what if losing him is the best option for me to move on and find somebody who’s gonna really appreciate me. The questions are so many and I got so many mixed emotions. Everything is just a lot.