WHO AM I?

Sometimes I sit alone and wonder. Can I grow fonder? I, too, want to be a man amongst men. Every day I try and be firm, but my eyes are filled with mist. I can’t see clearly; 16+- years flushed away before my eyes. It took all my directions; I became lost. It laughed at me as I fell slowly. Right in front of my face, it continued laughing. I never paid attention.

I lost who I was and the direction I was going. WHO AM I? Just when the light flushes and I could see clearly. I lost everything… I mean my direction, belief, esteem, social skills and many more. I became a nobody… Just a boy is living to survive. The light turned even brighter. My path was now clear and different.

I failed to understand that 16+- years ago was the beginning of my new path. Who can blame me? I was just a kid. At that age, life gets more interesting/ exciting. You lose focus quickly, and time flies. At that time, you have no worries about the world and even pay attention to the years. Especially if no one cares and you are hurting.

WHO AM I?

16+- years, you continued laughing at me. I can’t love anymore because of you. You ripped my heart out and broke it into millions of pieces. Leaving it shattered onto the ground. You thought I couldn’t put it together anymore. Well, I thought so; I didn’t realise you only made me stronger. Even though I’m still struggling to love, your laughter won’t affect me anymore. Your cruel words in my mind won’t affect me anymore, even though I’m still a little scared to give myself to the world because of you. I won’t let you continue to ruin my life. I’m on a new path now, a new chapter.  

I thought even harder, but I can seem to remember. It’s like for 8-+ years, I was deeply asleep but living. I can’t remember what I did for the first past 8-+ years.