There are just some things in life that totally beat my level of understanding. Maybe it’s because I’m a blonde – naïve and gullible all at once (I know it’s the same thing: making a point here) – or maybe that’s how I come across. Why would someone go to extremes just to stop someone else from being happy, especially if that someone else is their own son – by flesh and by blood?

So finally, Sebastian decided to come out with the truth. And as always, the truth stinks; it’s nothing but pain! Here’s the scenario: apparently, his mom is back in town. And guess what – she is not alone; she brought Sebastian’s ex, Sunnete (watch how I do the ‘nyu nye’ when I say her name), with her.

“Just to get rid of you!” he confessed to me. I was not surprised; I know his mother hates me. But what he said after that knocked me completely off. Brace yourself… he, and this Sunnete chick, has a baby. WTH? Is he for real?

He is. My Sebastian is a daddy and I didn’t know about it. Wow! Talk about being blindsided. I thought I knew him well, but now! I just collapsed in fits of hysterical laughter. I couldn’t help myself. It was one of those situations where you either laugh or cry – and Lord knows I’m too exhausted to cry.

Tee says I should be glad that he had the guts to tell me himself, and that I should hope he wasn’t lying.

“Men lie all the time when things go wrong in a relationship. It’s like an art they’ve mastered, to ease the burden off them and shift the blame on someone else,” she said to me.

I just hope he wasn’t using his mother as a scapegoat because of the bad blood between me and her. But why would he lie about a baby? I told him that and his only response was “Why would I do that, Zee? This is all so bloody confusing man. Sheez! why can’t there be peace in my life!”

Why should mothers be like this -always impossible to please and meddling in the lives of their children even when unnecessary? I bet mom and Sebastian’s mom would make good friends; they are so common in more ways than one! I hope mom doesn’t get like that when Sim starts dating.

OMG – I crack myself up; like Sim would ever date. LOL.

Now with the baby in the picture I feel like I am the side-chick trying to break up a family, refusing a child the opportunity to grow up with both parents! That’s selfish! Actually, I feel like a character in a soapie, love triangles just have never been my thing! I feel trapped! I so wish it was easy to just walk out of this relationship; but how do I do that when Sebastian just will hear none of that nonsense!

“Zinziswa baby, I love you, and only you. Please don’t let them get between us,”

He has never used that name before, never! I’ve never seen him so serious and cute at the same time! What do I do now? Should I be or should I not be? Hamlet, as Sim says, was right to ask.

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ZZ xxx