I never wanted you to want me
I wanted to show you
How maybe feelings could complete
Introduce you to a love
You have missed all your life
A meaning of ‘endlessly’
But you never allowed me
I only wanted to save you
But what about me?
LOOK WHAT I DID TO ME.

I perished in a state I was meant to heal
I died full of potential and zeal,
Only because I gave you what you needed
Not what you wanted
Like a night out and take of ecstasy
Even empty promises or a house with broken glasses
Maybe you wanted another betrayal
And so I held your hand and told you I am loyal
Could be you waited for the day
I stumbled on your heart and laughed at your broken pride
But I showed you another side, hope what love could be.
You didn’t believe it, did you?
That someone could hold you in silence
While their heart beats for you
That comfort can be more
Than escaping a home with bullet holes
LOOK WHAT I DID TO ME.

Came in too strong and revealed
What you were never ready for
So you scattered my soul on the floor,
Came in and apologised, what for?
Maybe I shouldn’t have given you love that set you free
Away from the chains that held you to anger and vengeance
Like an animal that preys on the weak,
You lived roaming around
Seeking for what will fill your heart
And I came in right on time
But you will never see it,
Blinded by your own hate
I loved you selflessly, hoping you would see
Praying for your life,
Hoping you make it through the night
Hear sounds of gun shots in the dark,
Police sirens passing by
All these time staring in the dark,
Knowing you might be part of the chaos
I loved you anyway
And it left me hoping I never had a heart.
LOOK WHAT I DID TO ME.