My apartment now was a warm home. I decorated it the way I wanted to with no one’s input about a horrible mat on the floor.

For the past few I pushed Blue at the back of my mind. I was not ready and I am still not yet ready to want to deal with that all kind of pain.

I switch between channels when a knock comes in. Ever since I have been here I only had one or maybe two visitors and they called so out of curiosity I stood up as I put the TV on mute and opened the door.

My breath caught on my throat, not even believing who was standing at my door.

“Justin.” Now he no longer had that aura of confidence. “What brings you here?”

“Can I at least come in.”

I stood guard on the door “You can say whatever you want here right where you standing.”

He looked down like a dog when it had done something wrong “I just want to apologise for treating you badly.”

I waved my hand off “I’m over it, it’s ok.”

“It’s just that now I know what you felt, She… She cheated, she ended up playing me, she left me for someone else.”

“I’m sorry Justin.”

He nodded “Thank you, maybe we can grab coffee together?”

“Do me a favour okay lose my numbers, never come back here cause me and you will never date and we will never get back together. Just go home and heal okay?” Without waiting for an answer I shut the door on his face and that felt good.

I locked the door and went back to the lounge and at that moment Blue’s face appeared on the TV.

I quickly scramble for the remove to remove the mute.

“I hope Sweetness you are watching this, don’t even try to change the channel I bought all the tv channels to not play anything for the today until I hear something from you. Firstly I’d like to say I can’t believe you left me at the Maldives just like that, with no goodbye.”

I sank back on the couch, not removing my eyes from the screen “If I did something wrong I am sorry, that day I wanted to tell you how much you mean to me, you make me feel complete and let me tell you how much trouble I got in with Bongeka, I had to beg like really beg her to give me your address so that I can tell you face to face how I feel. Your face is all I see, I search for your face in every crowd, in ever audience.”

I was oblivious to the familiar parking lot that he was in “I hope yo don’t blame her for giving me your numbers, I really twisted her hands even Themba helped convince his wife. You are what I think about the moment I wake up, I’ll be there Sweetness when you are afraid to board a plane I’ll sing for you, I will wipe the drool off your face and each day I will love you like it is the first time I sae you”

A knock came at that moment I hurried to the door and standing there with a whole lot of camera people behind him was Blue, every bone in my body wanted me to hug him but I stood there mostly surprised.

“Hi.” He said “Let me formally introduce myself.” He said sticking out his hand “My name is Thobane, and Sweetness I love you, I love you with all of my heart if I could take out my heart and show you I would do just that.”

I folded my arms “What about the kiss?”

” What kiss?” He seemed to think about it and it all came back to him “You got it all wrong, she just kissed, I didn’t kiss her. If you had just stayed a few more seconds you would have seen me leaving her there and I ran to the bonfire to find you but you weren’t there.”

He now said softly “I love you Sweetness and I love only you.”

“Oh.” I said “Yolanda” I said offering my name. “And I love you too.”

He took me in his arms and kissed me. I looked up “So if I can take a wild guess I am on television?”

“Yeah?”

I buried my face on his shoulder “You’re crazy.” He lifted my head up “I am crazy for you and only you.” He dipped down for a kiss and in that moment I knew that I was really in love, with a man crazy enough to buy all the channels and appear in all them just to say sorry.

If this isn’t love then I don’t know what is anymore. I was happy. Happy that I have found someone who proved to me how loves me. And as for me, well I was in love with no doubt in my mind.