Thobane



She was beautiful. How is it possible that she was even more beautiful.

I watched her all day gathering the courage to come to her. I always wondered how it will be like whenever I saw her again.

All the words I had practiced to tell her ran out of my mind the second I saw her.

For years I have stalked her Instagram where she posted herself living her best life. She looked so happy without me that I finally thought I would move on but each time I tried to move on she was always there haunting my dreams and invading my memories.

I wanted to pin her against the wall, kiss her senseless as I ran my hand under dress and feel how wet she was for me.

Even after 3 years and 7 months she still drives me insane.

I tried to move on, lord knows how much I have tried but I just couldn’t. Each time I would end up with another woman I thought maybe she will be able to erase Khanyisile out of my mind but they all never did.

Sofia almost succeeded but she ended up leaving me because she did not want to become anyone’s second option and I got where she was coming from and now standing here looking at this one girl I thought I never wanted to see her again made me realise that I never got over her.

“Leaving so soon?”

“Yeah, I’m tired.” She said as she dropped her gaze and looked down.

I could see the sadness from her eyes all I wanted was to wipe it away.