Thobane

“But sometimes you meet the right person at the wrong time,”

The words have been living on my mind rent free, I thought that she would say yes.

Jump in the moon with joy as she beamed with happiness, the scenario have played very differently in my mind.

I have felt heart ache before but this one dear lord felt different it felt like Khanyisile was stabbing my heart with a dagger over and over again.

I stayed hidden at the shadows as I watched her leave, I wanted to run upto her tell 1000 reasons why she must not leave me, all I wanted was to open my chest for her and let her see how much love I possess for her.

I would burn everything on this earth if it meant having her in my life perhaps that’s part of the problem.

When I was sure she was back safely at her apartment I went to to my car and sat there for what felt like eternity, where am I supposed to go from him?

I stepped on the gas and sped off for a millisecond I didn’t care if I crashed and burn perhaps then Khanyisile will know that I loved her.

I ease back, I found myself outside the art studio, I walked inside and put on my working apron and painted.

I painted like a mad man, I was not even sure what was I painting but I just kept painting until my hands bleed and begged me to stop.

I stepped back and watched what I painted, I was not surprised when I saw Khanyisile’s face in all kinds of paint colour.

I screamed as I banged on the wall, “After 2 years and deciding to open up to someone and she chose to leave just like that.”

I sat down, powerless now with my hands on head.