Khanyisile

I shrug, there are a lot of things I am feeling right noe one of those is how much I wanna throw myself in his arms and bury my face in his chest but another part of me don’t want to do that.

Even though I want to spend my life with him and would give anything to kiss him and just run away with him to go and start our new life somewhere maybe at the coast, where we will have a mini house and make him dozen of children and live happily ever after but something is holding me back.

Am I even ready for another relationship, I mean I know that I had long gotten over Langa but that does not mean I want to start another relationship.

I don’t even think I have the energy for another relationship if I was even honest with myself.

“I really really like you Thobane.” I say looking down at the ground with my arms folded “But sometimes you meet the right person at the wrong time,”

When I look up I saw how devastated he was but he quickly mask it as he stands up straight and stuff his now fisted hands deep in his pockets again.

I have seen him in many sides but this one is not is one of it, I have never seen him so cold before and it is all because of me.

“If we are meant to be then the universe will bring us together someday again.”

“If that’s how you feel.” He nods. His voice now feels like cold steel with no emotion to it whatsoever. “I suggest you go back home.”

“Thobane,”

But he is already walking the opposite direction away from me and I am torn at the thought of running after him or let myself let him go.

I walked away in a different direction as well and made a point of not looking behind me.