It was on the 16 of March 2020 when I realized that I was pregnant. I was 17 years , doing grade 12. I was afraid of telling everybody except my boyfriend and he accepted it.

When days go on , I told my big sister [the only sis I have] and she encouraged me to tell our parents but I refused. She asked me up to when will I keep my pregnancy as a secret. She was one of my favorites and I really appreciated the support she showed me.

As time goes on , my boyfriend asked me if I told my parents about the pregnancy and I just said yes because I didn’t want it to seem like I’m ashamed of being his baby mama.

One day , my sister saw that I was not feeling okay and she did all the house chores and we went to do some shopping. At 19:30 we prepared for supper. Nothing was wrong with me until earing time arrived. We sat on a table, dished up and started eating. My sister started eye contacting me as a sign that I must share the breaking news with my parents. I waited for them to start eating and I said” my dear parents, I know that you expected good things from me . You wanted me to become prosperous and shine bright like a diamond. You always wanted what’s best for me but unfortunately akl that was a dream that will never turn into reality because I am three months pregnant with Amogelang’s baby. I started crying after seeing that my parents are schocked and I stood up , pulled a chair and walked away to my bedroom where I locked up myself.

I was full of guilt and anger of disappointing my family. What shocked me was when I heard a knock on my door and that was mom . She was so low and I didn’t blame her.

I unlocked the door for her and she came in , sat on my bed , grabbed my hand and said to me ” my daughter , no one is perfect. Everyone has their mistakes but they tend to turn those mistakes into something special. A baby is a gift from God but I don’t encourage what you did . I’m so disappointed in you but just make me one favor which is passing your matric with a Bachelor’s degree. I know gore you didn’t do it intentionally but please don’t forget what you’re made of. People will start talking and that’s what will help you to grow bigger . I don’t judge you because I know that everything has it’s own time . I want you to know that we love you and your baby ngwana’ka . Feel free to talk whenever you want and pull up your socks . “

My eyes was full of tears . I had mixed emotions and didn’t know what to do or say but that was the beginning of my journey as a “mother-to-be” .