Today it is 30th of July I’m busy preparing myself to return to Gauteng in Springs with Tshepang , I took my small bag packed everything on it because I knew we are not going to stay so long in Gauteng the only thing that led me to go back there is birth certificate my mother in law want me back here in Mpumalanga and Still remembered when we arrived here three weeks back she took Tshepang checked his hands and legs after that she told me that this is real Dlamini’s you didn’t rob my son she said her voice still echoes in my mind.

“Makoti go well in Gauteng but after three days I want you here you are not working there only Thabang’s works. My mother in law said.

I nodded ,took my stuff returned to Gauteng we arrived in time and I found tha Thabang is not in our apartment I called him he came back gives me keys and this time he bought a car and he didn’t inform me that he want to buy car this came as a surprise I was shocked when I see car entered in our palace.

The following day we went to apply birth certificate of the baby everything went well we even apply child grant support because I’m not working .

After three days I returned to stay with my mother in law in Mpumalanga because I trusted my husband and in my mind I thinks it is good to raise a child next to elderly people because there’s lot of ritual that black people do.

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Days went by and month went by now Tshepang is 3 months old and we’re not yet returned to Gauteng now his father has changed he no longer calls me and when I call him he didn’t pick up my calls . Everything had changed the person who used to say good night or good morning to me he no longer doing that.

I tell my mother in law that I’m returning to Gauteng she agrees on our way I was worried what if my man something terrible happened to him . I and Tshepang arrives in time I finds that my husband has new friends I mean bad friends Sizwe and Zweli so we continue to live well with my husband .

I decided to took his smartphone opened gallery to watch pictures because we usual borrowed each other’s phones because we didn’t hid anything for each other our phones doesn’t had passwords.

After opening gallery I came I across with the picture of my husband and girl in our bedroom cuddling my husband didn’t see that that the girl took a picture because she took it while my husband asleep.

“Thabang who’s this huh? I inquires while crying.

“Thobile my love it is not what you think . He replied

“Thabang to all those places you brought a girl onto our own room our own bed what were you thinking huh?

Thabang kept quiet for a moment I looked inside of the wardrobe finds big earrings that’s not belongs to me which means this lady was owning our palace when I was away. Now I’m bleeding ever since I gave birth to Tshepang I and Thabang we’re no longer having sex together.

I took my phone calls my mother in law explaining everything said they believe me but I should fight for my man . How am I going to fight for a man who has already chosen other woman I cries and cries he did it with purpose it wasn’t mistake.

“Thobile honestly I have found someone better than you , Gloria is better she’s working and has style unlike you who sleeps the whole day without doing anything. Thabang said

Now my eyes turned onto red why all those things happened to me ,maybe I’m not beautiful enough to be loved .Everyday and night Thabang’s phone rings more than twice he no longer respect me when she calls him he picked up talk as he pleased.

Gloria she’s 30 years woman with one daughter doing grade 3 so she’s older than me because I am 25 years old she works as a cashier but she lied to Tshepang that she’s working in Airport.

I and Thabang we’re no longer enjoying love every time when I came back to Gauteng he chased me out told me that he want to be free with his new girlfriend.

“Returned back to Mpumalanga you are finishing electricity . He said

I kept silent then he walks out to drink beers with his friends Sizwe and Zweli all of them are womanizer .I visit a girl next door do braiding her hair he came back while I was still busy styling her.

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After some few hours I returned back to our palace .

I opened a warm water in the bathroom bath Tshepang now he’s 1 year old after that I bathe my body before I finished here is Thabang beating me with a big stick .

“Why do you gossip about me with your friend huh? He said furious

I said I didn’t gossip about you we were busy talking about girls things you felt ashamed because I’m no longer following you .

“You are lying , Thabang replied.

I cries and cried and now I do not have money to return to Mpumalanga and if I continue stays here Thabang would kill me. I took a cellphone call my brother in law telling him that Thabang beats me in a bathroom.

“Thobile do not cry , Thabang has a demon tomorrow early in the morning I would send you money in your capitec account and make sure you come back with baby do you not leave Tshepang there . My brother in law said.

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The following day my brother in law didn’t took time to send me money to return back home. He send me R400 and I took R200 paid transport then left with R200 for snacks on the way our taxi stops at Dullstroom we bought food and ate.