CHAPTER 7

I stared at the window thinking about he scenario. I had peed on his bed out of nowhere. He told me he loved me then boom I was lovestruck and forgot I needed a bathroom. He never laughed at me . I still recalled how sympathetic he was.

” Baby… Maybe you need to see a doctor,” he rubbed my back .

” Maybe you have a bladder infection,” he continued.

I couldn’t even look up with shame. I laughed as I gazed through the window. There were cars screeching in the street as if they were chasing each other . The moon was bright and white . I felt his warm rough hands round my waist.

” Mianhae”

” What?” I asked harshly because he was back talking in Korean. He saw it my eyes and bowed down as if he was avoiding my eyes.

” It means sorry,” he whispered.

I wondered why I was too sensitive.

” Hope you will be okay,” he whispered again and this time behind me.

I was annoyed ,I thought he would speak those sweet tongue and I rolled my eyes. He turned my body to face him and smiled.

” Let’s go see.. and also the love … And we can also lock our keys,” he suggested but not finishing though I understood what he meant but at first I thought he wanted to travel.

” I like touring… Let’s go,” there was disgust in my face.

I wondered why I wasn’t giving in ,now I regretted that I never get the chance. Why can’t we be naked together and make our bodies explore more? I licked my lip and he kissed me deeply while his fingers ran around my back to my chest . The fingers were warm and electrocuted my body and nearly lost balance.

He pushed me on the bed while he removed his shirt. His broad chest send chills in my spine. I felt my body get weak and hot. He crawlednon topnon me and e caressed my breasts while kissing me and I hold him tightly. I didn’t want to let him go. I found myself on his chest. I could hear his heart beat which was fast like a exhausted person.I didn’t know how it happened but it was strange and a shock to me. I got what I wanted.

After two hours sleeping,I felt my body stench in sweat . I woke up,Chang was by my side and his phone had been ringing. The caller name was written in a Korean language. I know because of me being obsessed with Korea ,I know the signs but can’t read.

He flinched and jumped from bed and dragged the phone. He ran to the bathroom,I was surprised and wondered why. I sneaked towards him and heard him speak in Korean. I thought I heard him say ‘ Sarang – hae’ it was ‘ I love you ‘ in Korean language. I know this words because every time I explore language I always wanted to know how they say ‘ I love you’. Who was he speaking to ? I was angry and flustered. I stared blankly , thoughtful. My anger led my actions.

I couldn’t control myself even when he opened the door,I pushed him on the wall.

” So you been lying to me all along…. You are cheating me? … Just because I slept with you ,you find a way to hurt me huh,”I shouted in rage.

” Why run to the bathroom? You cheating on me ,” I slapped on his chest so hard that I felt my palms inch.

I didn’t bother to notice his reaction because I was angry and I slapped his cheek and the other slap ,he prevented it by holding my waist tight.

” You have gone too far,” he spoke angrily.

In his eyes he was not angrier than me. I pulled my hand away and took all his clothes and handed him harshly.

” Get out and never came back,” I spoke without thinking what I was doing,whether it was right or wrong.

” Babe…,” he muttered inaudibly He lifted my chin up but I wouldn’t look at his eyes because I believed he was like man who wanted me to have sympathy for them but they would be tricking me.

I gestured for him to leave but he looked at me teary and I didn’t know what to do. I was standing on the crossroad not knowing which action was right.

” I’m not cheating you,” he spoke with sadness in his voice.

” I really love you. I mean it . I was speaking to my sister . She is in hospital…… Remember I don’t want her to know about us because she is sick …She will be devastated if she know I was dating a black lady. I don’t want to trigger her sickness,” he spoke sincerely .

Tears fell on my cheeks and I crouched and sobbed. How could I be so cruel?

“‘ chichi ,you are jealous because of his sister? How ruthless!’

” I’m sorry,” he crouched beside me and hang his hand on my shoulders.

I didn’t know why I cried but I knew I had embarrassed myself . What a evil human was I?