Reconciliation in families is important. One day you will need one another!

CHAPTER 1

” I’ m sorry for what I did,I hope one day you can forgive me,” he sobbed while gulping a glass of black label.

She was in the hottest bar in Mzansi , Kitchener’s Bar. Nomatter had been pestering her to go out. The bar had tables and chairs,you did swear it was a restaurant but it had a space for dancing with a stage for performers. Luckly the bar was not full as always like during the weekend ,every monthend. A glistering ball was hanged above dancing floor and a few danced under the ball.

Shamiso looked at him with a serious face with a thoughts hanging in her head and fear invading her body. She had a horrible,panicky feeling .She couldn’t believe she was alone with the man who sexual abused her when she was a kid. A part of her wanted him to suffer the way she did. She hadn’t healed ,she felt bitterer every second when she stare at him,she sweated profusely. The juice tasted different and she pushed the glass of mango cocktail aside .

” I knew nothing…. I was a child and you ….. And Lovemore damaged me,” she screamed and smacked the table with her palm.

” I’m sorry and can’t you see Lovemore was punished for it and I am yet to suffer,” he stared at her with sadness and remorse emotions. He felt torn and breath was caught in his throat.

” I wished you died with him,” she gusted. She felt like she was swept away in a raging river and couldn’t find a tree to hang on.

” Kill me then……. My marriage was on a rock and I know God was punishing for me. I just want you to forgive me ,” he pleaded ,tears prickling on his face.

Nomatter appears from the door and decided to join them. She could sense the tense between them and stared at them flustered. Shamiso had distress and disappointment on her face which was heavy .A week ago Shamiso and Nomatter had wanted to bond after the death of Lovemore. Nomatter suggested a restaurant where they had dinner. Shamiso had been bragging about the twins and that made a hole in Nomatter’s heart.

 Nomatter regretted​ giving up the babies for adoption and she rushed to the restroom because she couldn’t control her tears. After she finished sobbing ,she decided to go back to their table and that is where she found his brother present.

She wasn’t sure what was happening and sat on her chair ,she already felt the bad energy around them. .

” Sit down bro ! We need to resolve this ,” she gestured to his brother who scowled a sad face.

Shamiso thought Nomatter had it planned to make her talk to the man who changed her life. She stood up ,shoving the chair and it fell on the ground drawing unnecessaryattention.

” I’m leaving,” she raged and dragged her handbag and walked towards the door. Tears trickled on her face recalling how Nomatter had suddenly become close to her.

Two weeks ago Nomatter visited her while her husband was out of town for work. She was happy because she knew she would help her with the twins who were troublesome especially when her husband was away. She was happy to have someone close after her mother’s death. Her mother had been her best and only friend until she met Mike.

” The twins have grown …. Wow so cute,” Nomatter smiled gleamly.

Shamiso prepared stir chicken fry with noodles for lunch and let Nomatter tend the twins who had just eaten their mashed vegetables. When the meal was done ,she stand at the threshold of door with a tray with dished mashed carrots and potatoes. Nomatter was sitting on the floor with the twins facing her.

” I wish I never gave you up. You are so adorable. Now I am the lonely chick,” she tried to gigglee but her voice was sad.

” Shamiso is looking after you well. You deserve this,” she turned her head and noticed Shamiso staring at her.

She wiped her tears and stood up as if she was guilty of something. Shamiso heard the conservation but didn’t put it up seriously,she only thought Nomatter had her issues which she won’t disclose to her . She took the tray with mashed egg and potatoes in two plates on the table

” You okay?” Shamiso asked and walked towards them.

” Yes,I love the twins . I wish I could have my own,”she replied and laugh though her voice was more sad.

” One day you will be married and have kids dear,” she rubbed Nomatter’s shoulder and sat down.

” Come help me feed them… You know how twins are,” she gestured to her with her eyes.

” I have to go,” Nomatter’s body trembled and voice was shaky. She was awestruck,her heart hammered like crazy.

” Please…. You can leave after. One will cry while I feed another,” Shamiso pleaded . Nomatter saw through her eyes begging nicely.

” Okay,” she sat down by her heart was constricted in her chest and darted forward the twins.

Shamiso leaned on the wall outside the bar thinking about the last visit of Nomatter at her house . She wiped her tears as she wondered what Nomatter meant. 

” I wish I never gave you up. You are so adorable. Now I am a lonely chick”

Her mind overworked thinking of what it could possibly mean. She was happy to come out of a raging fire unharmed.. A song of Akon’ Yori yori’ played on her phone. A message popped up ,it was his father demanding each one of them to be present of family union. Her stomach clenched and shiver went through her back. Anger boiled in her blood . and she slipped the phone in her handbag. She felt as if she was back in the fire ,and could feel the heat on her skin.

” Is this why Bright was so remorseful?”

” Family ….. Family whatever,” she clicked her tongue and jumped in her car.

Nomatter appeared at the door calling for her. She saw her on the rearview but still drove off. She was tired of the fake family.She wondered why they called it a family when two of her brothers raped her.