“I’m fine” I utter,

As a paint my face with a fake smile.

Though deep down I know that I am never better.

Why will they ask me if I am fine?

Why will they ask me that?

For they know I am in a middle of crises.

They surely see my tears stroking down like torrential rainfall.

But boldly they ask me if I am surely okay.

So yeah, I respond ” I’m fine”

My words concealing the pain that rages inside.

To them I look unbeatable,

A formidable force that demolishes all obstacles that befell.

Yet deep within I yearn someone to truly see me inside.

Someone who can understand what fragile I am.

But what can I do?

I wipe all tears and surrender to their desire.

And I repeat their empty words, “yeah, I’m fine”

Concealing my problems, a broken soul inside longing for the comfort

But all I could see are faces that expect me to be always strong

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