MHH, I WONDER, WHAT NOW?

WHAT WILL I DO WITH MY LIFE?

ALL THE YEARS I SPENT IN SCHOOL,

WHAT FRUITS WILL THEY YIELD?

WILL THEY BE BITTER OR SWEAT.

WILL I ALSO END UP ON THE STREETS,

OR WILL I JUST DROWN IN DEBT,

DEBTS I HAVE NO WAY OF PAYING BACK?

I FINALLY SEE IT NOW; THE WORLD IS PATIENTLY WAITING FOR ME,

FOR ME TO BRING THE FRUITS I HAVE YIELDED, AFTER ALL I WILL REAP

FROM WHAT I HAVE SOWED.

WHAT NOW…………..

WILL I BECOME A GAMBLER,

IN HOPE I MIGHT WIN THE LOTTERY ONE DAY,

OR JUST HIT THE JACKPOT ON BETSWAY.

WHAT NOW.

WHAT WILL I WAKE UP FOR EVERY MORNING?

I USED TO WAKE AND GO TO SCHOOL,

BUT NOW I WAKE UP TO BE ON MY PHONE ALL DAY.

HAVE I BECOME LOST?

I MEAN, I HAVE NOT EVEN GOT MY MATRIC RESULTS YET.

I MEAN IT”S THE 11th OF DECEMBER 2023, AND I WILL GET MY RESULTS ON THE

19th OF JANUARY 2024 BUT I ALREADY FEEL LOST.

If you are feeling depressed or suicidal, please know that there is help out there and you can get better. Reach out to SADAG counselling 0800 567 567 (toll-free counselling between 8am and 8pm) or their Suicide Crisis Line: 0800 567 567. You are not alone.