The only choice I had was to be strong,
But right now I am tired.
I am tired of it all.
Life is a battlefield that needs us to win.
You have to win by choosing to fight, fight your life.
Fight for your mother, your brother your friend
But where do I get all the energy from
When I am so consumed by all this hurt.
It has broken me, broken me into me pieces
I cannot seem to find.
I spend my days trying to find all the pieces.
The pieces that are a part of my strength,
My hope, my happiness and without them
It continues to be a journey that is tiring.
It takes all my time and energy, leaves me with nothing.
Twenty three years of ups and downs,
But nothing to show for it now.
All I need from you right now is
To let me be, allow me to feel every emotion.
Allow me to search for my pieces in another life time.
Where I will be strong and have everything I wished for.
Where I will be happy that I had finally found my pieces.
I will be tuned in to find my peace and solitude.
But for now allow me to rest.
If you are feeling depressed or suicidal, please know that there is help out there and you can get better. Reach out to SADAG counselling 0800 567 567 (toll-free counselling between 8am and 8pm) or their Suicide Crisis Line: 0800 567 567. You are not alone.