“Before you go further,
Criticising my body,
Just know that I was born like this,
So nothing you say nor do that will change the way I look, talk and walk.
This is me,
Perfect just the way I am”
Those were the words I said fighting for myself,
I was tired of being told that I was not good enough,
Which sometimes somehow felt like it was true.
I hated myself,
Lost my confidence in that hate,
I then became ashamed of my body
Because of people who use to remind me of how fat I was,
Treated me like I was not normal,
Or like I had some kind of sickness
Which made me in their eyes look less human,
Have you ever been compared to an animal because of how you look?
If yes then you might know how I might have felt when they’d call me a pig.
I was fat and i was born fat.
Their insults made me to wish that I was something else.
Something better that it would make them appreciate me just the way I was.
I almost drop out at primary school because of this treatment,
My peers making jokes out of me everyday.
They finally won
And i dropped out at high school
I saw no use of finishing my matric,
Because that wouldn’t have changed how I felt and how people saw me as.
At my first day at work I lost my temper
On my colleague for reminding me,
I then lost my job.
I became shy and couldn’t face people,
The reason why I was always angry.
The reason why I couldn’t communicate with people and the reason why I had a low self-esteem.
It’s because I’ve been bullied and body shamed
We live in a world where everyone is judge for being themselves in our communities,
Many souls are dead because of body shaming, some don’t love themselves enough because of the same issue
Where slenders thinking that they beautiful and better than chubby people,
Making it seem like being fat is a desease.
I’m now a slender because of the pain
And I see nothing better in me compared to how I was before,
So stop body shaming,
Even if you slender or chubby
Female or Male.
We all human and more or less the same.