I keep on feeling pain , in my heart

on this earth, in my art, 

when i paint I don’t know what I paint,

but I can feel what i paint. 

How can i define this pain that I am feeling

Eyes is red of the whole night crying

behind the door of my bathroom.

Can not think straight just want myself to

vanish from this earth, this earth create

my pain, from the sad words that comes and goes.

I am at a moment where just want to vanish,

Cause of this pain that I, I feel.

Why God? Believe in a Spiritual being that can not answer me. Is my Faith too small. 

I keep on hoping that things get better.

But then you answer, but the timing is bad.

This moment where i feel pain, why can you

just make me feel happy?

just like that, Yes just like a snappy

finger, I really believe that you exist.

I lay on my bed where I feel pain, I pray

so that you can make a miracle work and put

a smile on my face, God I guess.

a visit of a guest 

It is the person that makes me happy,

the guest was knocking at my door.

I was not fix, i did not wear nice clothes.

But that person said that I does

not have to be perfect, I can be 

who I am infront of him.

That person is my best friend the one and

only person that makes me happy, once again that’s why i believe in our God even if it’s the wrong timing.