I don’t know what to say.

Accepting the truth was hard.

There were a few times I accepted it,

And when I did,

I felt like a heavy load was removed,

Not worrying about anything at all,

Except for the obvious.

Not feeling drained, for I don’t know what reason.

It felt amazing,

Even though it didn’t last for that long,

It was still great.

What matters is that at least I had

A little time to relax,

Before the whole cycle started again,

And well, I must say,

Each time it starts,

It gets a lot more rough,

And each time it does, I Iearn a lot

I learn how to hide it,

And I’ve become an expert in doing that.

I might overcome this and accept myself,

My emotions and my flaws one day,

And who knows, maybe I’ll finally accept that you won’t ever come back to me,

Who knows.

I’m taking baby steps,

And it feels nice.

No pressure,

Okay, maybe there is a little external pressure,

But I’ll make it through.

I just want you to know that I’ll always love you till the end of time.