I remember growing up I dreamt about you

I remember my parents telling me they wanted you for me

The whole community talked about you

How they wished every youth would have you.

I guess for some of us were late and missed the train to you

It’s a hard life living, wishing not to be a burden anymore

But we have no choice, complaining about it won’t change anything

‘Where are you going?’ Too afraid to answer coz I also don’t know anymore

Carry on the path you on everything will be alright!

That’s what I hope to hear, not abanye abantwana bayarhereza

I’m no longer sure of where exactly my destination is

I don’t understand why I still have hope for a better day

Holding myself back from throwing the towel

I can’t give up yet –

Can’t seem to find the map to you

I no longer know what steps I can take to get to you

People barely care whether I’m coping or not

The ageist society won’t let me relax

Now I’m also slowly internalizing their views

All the cans I had been dried up

Feeling like a bird with no wings

Looking at my family, trying for me to find those postures of green

I don’t know what to do!

Problems always showing their ugly heads, trying to bleed me

Success, I’ll find you!

I don’t know how but I will

Telling myself that,

But I’ve been crawling, so it’s hard to believe that

I see others coming up to you

I still don’t understand why I can’t see you from a distance

Maybe I’ve missed the opportunities that were sent to me

Still trying my best not to have hope less

Lingering too close to feelings of hopelessness

Oh success, why do I still struggle to find you?

Seems like I have some oppositions holding me down

Can’t seem to make my shots

Don’t have any solutions to this thing blocking me

Growing up I remember I dreamt about you

My parents use to tell me they want you for me

The whole community talked about you

How they needed every youth to find you

Somebody please tell me what I’m missing

I’m losing my mind –

I’m scared that I won’t find my way to you

Been crippled by past failures at every try

Don’t know anymore if I have the strength to try new things out

At every try I have been left disappointed

Now I’m left asking myself, “What’s the point then?!”