My past is a register I monitor

my future is the wall I’m weak to break.

to hate I fear

to love, my heart has a million questions

I’m into her and

she is into him

I am broken

I didn’t know that bringing her back

would be a sin

that loving her again

would tear my emotions apart

she’s my past, my lesson, my regret

Her laughter silences my heart to its cord

like a game of cards

nobody cares. a win is a win

my eyes blink twice in a raw

I’m broken. I am in ice

With my mind shutting down

God I am still pictured as a clown.

as a pillow. my knee is flat on the ground

for her I will forever bow

I am moving backwards

someone please hold my hand

This matter is way above my profile

Dave pass me my bag. I have a file

her file. Her broken promises.

loving her is a sin I’ll forever sing

she hasn’t changed and I haven’t moved

I’m trying but with a heart like this

loving her will forever be an on and on

circle I’ll sink in. A circle to eat me alive.