Warning this poem contains sensitive content about rape. Reader discretion is advised.
I wish I’d said

I wish I wish if times would go back to the olden days.

I wish ohh do I wish for everything to go back to normality but only do stuff get worse and worserer.

I was your lover but suddenly things changed

He changed you

You brought him into our lives, you made him your other half.

Little did you ask how I felt about him being in our lives

I had no say on everything it was just him, him, him.

Arghh was the word I now familiarised myself with.

I now became an outsider nothing I said was important everything had to pass to him in order to get approved.

I wished if dad was part of my life but he was never even in the picture.

I told myself I was gonna let him into our lives because

He seemed like a generous man’little did I know……..

I was letting water Inside the house.

He started giving me looks, telling me how damn pretty I was, nothing was wrong with that but 

The way he said it made me feel uncomfortable.

I told you hence you chose to believe him overall

Believe a stranger !!! Over your own blood. My mother was gone

My perfect sweet soul 

A person with love and humanity was no longer.

Physically you were here, emotionally you were gone.

We started having fights because of him. 

He was a destroyer and a disrupter of the devil himself.

One afternoon I felt his shadow behind my back, he forced himself onto me.

He told me how much I had to be punished just because of my behavior.

I begged him to let me go.

A part of me was taken away, I no longer knew who I was.

I was destroyed I now had to put a fake smile.

Pretending everything was fine only did they notice.

That I was dead for too long I wished I would go somewhere far where I won’t have to remember a thing that has happened. 

I started hating males because of him.

Each and every male now started to become so hungry for me, this RAPE stigma followed me everywhere I went.

I WISH I’D SAID GO TO HELL.!!!