I fought and fought

With no render of help

I lost my soul in the process

I lost myself in the process

Nobody cared

Nobody weaped

Grins covering their faces

Laughter was the only sound I could hear

How I wish I was happy

How I wish I was given a sign or warning to keep my distance from u

How I wish I had known how I was gonna be in pain day in and out before falling inlove with u

I fought and fought

With no render of help

I lost my soul in the process

I lost myself in the process

Nobody cared

Nobody weaped

Grins covering their faces

Laughter was the only sound I could hear

How I wish I was happy

How I wish I was given a sign or warning to keep my distance from u

How I wish I had known how I was gonna be in pain day in and out before falling inlove with u

immediately I set my eyes on u I automatically become nil…your eyes thrust right in mine and I am left feeling pain.the glimpse of your presence somehow always manages to leave me in pain

How did I let u hold so much authority in my life,your actions and words beheld my life now.and like a being with no closure I’m left in pain.

I heard u found someone new

Someone beautiful

Someone capable

Hairy,blue dark eyes,long chin,I could go on and on and on displaying all my lackings in her.

I wish u could be happy,but not happier like u would ever be when with me

Falling inlove was never part of the plan, yearning for your love wasn’t either…but u’ve got me soaking my pillow each night, crying at the edge of my room and activating an imaginary level of fantasy with no fact in my head

If you are feeling depressed or suicidal, please know that there is help out there and you can get better. Reach out to SADAG counselling 0800 567 567 (toll-free counselling between 8am and 8pm) or their   Suicide Crisis Line: 0800 567 567. You are not alone.