I’m always wondering

I always pinch myself

To see if I’m not disturbed

These lonely nights alone

I wish I were with someone whom I adore

I am alone tonight with nobody to hold

Looking for someone to lean onto

Trying to fit myself where I do not belong

What can I say?

And what do I expect?

One day, other nights

I will be with someone who will make me happy

Since my expectations overcome my reality

As it unfolds, all the loneliness in me

And my bed is cold without you by my side

I imagine the arms which will hold me

The day my loneliness will fade as if I never vent

I ruined my every mood of myself because of this imaginary world

Why did I have to close my eyes?

To feel my loneliness?