I have been trying every day.
Dragging myself out of bed,
Pushing to feel like myself again.

‘Cause lately I am that stranger you have not seen in ages.

I get nervous too, when I see another reflection

That I cannot recognise in the mirror.

I have realised I cannot prevent pain by causing it,

And I have just been trying to find the person,

Who has been draining my might.

I get so dizzy at night,

Just by staring at the ceiling.

I tried breathing in and out,

But the air gets so tight.

I am losing my mind and surely losing this fight.

Always feels like I am drowning,

And I only have myself to drag out.

I guess nothing is as kind-hearted as I am.

Knocked myself against the door the other day.

I swear my brain said something to my heart.

How cruel!

I know I have lost control,

But I have been fighting this anxiety with everything I have.

That I have got nothing left in me,

Only memories of a losing battle.

I only remember I don’t want to feel like this again,

And I only have myself to convince it’ll get better.

How simple is that?!

I swear it doesn’t wanna go away,

‘Cause it’ll never go my way, anyway.

I know it’s been forever but I can’t let go.

Ain’t no way I can sneak out of it,

And maybe bounce back?

Not when fear creeps up on you at dawn,

Only to remind you to guard your heart.

But the only power in your tight grip,

Becomes a lion admiring its meal and ready to devour.