My dad broke my heart,

Before a girl even had a chance to do it.

He smashed my fragile heart into pieces

And left me in scraps.

Daddy was supposed to be my hero,

He was supposed to be my guide,

Someone I had to look up to,

Someone to help me navigate the paths life throws at me.

Daddy was supposed to be my soccer mate

Yet, he never cared to care for his selfish reasons.

Daddy was never part of my life,

He was never ready to be my father

He chooses to flatten me before I could even have a chance to know him,

He never cared to love me. 

Growing up without a father hurts like a headache,

Every day is a struggle.

You never know which direction to turn to,

As daddy is nowhere to lead your ways.

One day, I will be a father who never had a father,

A father who has no idea how I should rock the fatherhood.

I father who never experienced fatherly love.

And I sob in silence,

Curious and concerned!

How I’m I supposed to rock fatherhood when the time comes?

I wonder what’s wrong I had done to my father.

I wonder if he ever looks back and says I have a child who is in need.