A swollen heart
Eyes that conceive tears
A darkened mind
Who’d care to know
That slowly i am losing myself
The heart
Heavy and tired
Of caring burdens
No soul is ready to understand
The pain I’m going through
Last night i tried to pray
But i didnt know what to say
I heard tears are a message to God
And so
I sent him a message
Hope he answers
Have i known
My life will be
Intolerant
Sorrow
Misery
I wish i can escape
Somebody hear my cry
A weary and cranky voice
Let the earth devour my soul
Let my spirit wander in despair
As u put pink rose’s on my coffin
Its worthless breathing
My eyes are swollen
They can not go any longer than this
The sky is azure
How i wish
I was like the sky
I’d cry all night but shine like nothing happened the following morning
How i wish
I could scream at the world like lightening and thunderstorms
But i can’t
I don’t have it in me
I bottle it in
I see no good thing
No beautiful ordinaries
I used to be happy
I used to scream in happiness
I’d never cry
Oh those days
Its funny how life can change in just a blink of an eye
He once loved me
He once adored me
I believed I’ve got a story
A story to share with
Our children
But unknowingly
I was wrong
He changed before i could bare him kids
He became a monster
No,he never hit me
He damaged my soul
And not my face
He crashed my heart
Not my eyes
He injured my love
Not my legs
Physical abuse was better
But he was smart
He messed with me mentally
They warned me
They told me
They gave me hints
How could i be so foolish?as not to see the clear writing on the wall
It was blur
I try to convince myself with my ass down my window and my pillow in my arms
I could feel its sudden heaviness due to tears
I could feel my eyes swollen
In pain
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